Fighting the Mind-Killer

One of my favourite motivational lines is this one from Frank Herbert’s Dune:

“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.” – Paul Atreides

Fighting the Mind-Killer

Cool, eh?  Well, it describes something that I need to do but seem to lack the courage.  I haven’t run in weeks and feel rather uneasy about it.  Geez, that was uncomfortable to admit; so much so, that I went to the kitchen to get a snack before continuing.  I was supposed to do an interval run on Monday.  It had been a bit cooler and I should have done it at the warmest point of the day; but I didn’t.  Then, the temperature dropped and I should have put on warmer gear and run; but I didn’t.  It wasn’t too late to make it happen but I didn’t.  Out of guilt, I was going to do a CrossFit workout but my sister suggested yoga instead.  So that’s what I did, but the truth is that I didn’t want to run.  The very thought of getting on the treadmill was abhorrent to me…so I didn’t.

Fighting the Mind-Killer

Weapons of Fat Destruction

The next day I was determined to stick to the schedule.  Quite frankly, there wouldn’t be half as much guilt if I hadn’t shared it with you all.  Holly Perkins’ Cardio 360 workout from her Fitness 360 DVD with 5lb dumbbells presented an interesting challenge.  This session felt like visiting with an old friend and my body sorely needed to lift something!  The next day, I felt some soreness in my trapezius muscles.  Apparently those tricep extensions hit a spot that hadn’t been worked in way too long.  Wednesday was very busy for me and I just did Holly’s Yoga Energizer workout along with Fitsugar’s Flow Yoga with Ursula Vari.  For the first time in ages, it was really very tough.  At the end of them, I was breathing hard and felt it everywhere.  It appears that the yoga may have been the better choice for Monday’s workout.  Especially since it looks like my recent bout of inactivity messed up my fitness mojo.

Fighting the Mind-Killer

My stats

On Thursday, I bucked up and got on the treadmill for a twenty-minute incline walk.  I watched videos posted by my colleagues on My Life at Speed to pass the time and was quite surprised when the time said 19:45!  It felt good to sweat it out; and, I’m quite sure that the mind-killer is locked away in its wee cage once again.  I’m still drinking brown sugar in my tea but not as much as before.  Also, it’s still a trial to drink a lot of water but I’m staying away from soda.  That’s a total no-no.  However, I did get a bit carried away with some chocolate milk that wasn’t of the low-fat variety.  It’s really hard to stay on the straight and narrow when your fitness goal is just within reach.  Right now, I’m not adding any more pressure to myself.  I’m going to stick to my schedules, eat clean and train mean.  I know in my bones that it’s going to happen exactly when it’s supposed to, God willing.  No retreat, no surrender and no excuses!

(My Fitness Revolution: Days 465 to 468)

Date
4-Feb-13
5-Feb-13
6-Feb-13
7-Feb-13
Distance
0
0
0
1.033
Time (mins)
0:00
0:00
0:00
20:01
Calories
0
0
0
161
Carbs
0.0
0.0
0.0
20.2
Min Speed
0.0
0.0
0.0
3.0
Max Speed
0.0
0.0
0.0
3.3
Incline
0
0
0
5
Day
465
466
467
468
Activity
Yoga Energizer & Fitsugar’s Flow Yoga
Cardio 360
Yoga Energizer & Fitsugar’s Flow Yoga
Incline Walk